"My heart is yours to fill or burst, to break or bury. or wear as jewelry. whichever you prefer."
Well my dearest loved ones, I hope everything is well in G-town.
Boy do I have a story for you. So this week was transfers and before you all ask yourselves, "Elder Askins, did you get transfered?" Let me tell you what happened last week.
So for the longest time now (more or less 6 weeks) I have been fighting to get us a house in the area Xaxim. Everyday we lose like 2 hours in just walking to and from our area, sometimes it's three hours! So I have been working with the Stake President and the Bishop and everyone and I just kept getting shut down. I was getting really really ticked off. It was not very cool.
Last week we received word that our Zone would have interveiws with President Cordon. So I prepared myself for talking to him about this situation because I was sick of living out of just my suitcases. So Elder Silva went into the room first to do his interveiw and then I went in after. I sat down and we said a prayer and then President looked into my eyes and said, "How is everything?" And I said, alright and he said "I think they would be better if you lived in your area." Elder Silva had already talked to him and so he said he would support us moving into a house. We made plans to move today! Then he asked me "Elder Askins, do you consider yourself worthy to enter into the temple?" And I said yes and he said "I know. I never have to worry about you. You are an amazing elder and I am so blessed to serve with you. The Lord and I know we can trust you so much." Wonderful words and kind of scary because this is what happened next... He asked if there was anything else that I want to talk about. I knew that transfers were coming up and I was nervous about leaving. I said "President, I know that transfers are done by the Lord, but if it means anything, I would love to stay with Elder Silva just one more transfer and see the growth in Xaxim." And he said "I can't say anything because the Lord does the transfers. But I can say this Elder Askins, this next transfer will be a big transfer." Uh-ooh I thought. So this week we received a phone call from the zone leaders about transfers. I have been transferred. I am now writing you in the wonderful town of Matinhos. That's the name of my area. If you wish to locate it... it's RIGHT ON THE COAST BABY!!! How awesome is that?? I am literally looking at the beach right as I type this. That is awesome! I was also called as district leader. Which I am super nervous about but as I have learned many times on my mission, "Whom the Lord calls, the Lord qualifies."
I am so greatful for this opportunity I have to give the Lord my all and serve him. I was reading in the scriptures today. I don't remember where, but Jesus was talking to his disciples and he said "Is the servant greater than his Master?" And I thought, I am that servant and I am no where close to being like my Master. I need to do so much better because if Christ our Master, can get down on His knees and wash His apostles feet and serve others, can I do anything less? Absolutely not.
I love the Lord. I know He lives. He is the head of this Church and He restored His church through a prophet of God. I know that Joseph Smith was a prophet and that the Book of Mormon is true. I didn't do anything special to learn these truths. I just read the Book of Mormon and asked God, I received an answer that I cannot deny and because I received this answer, I received this call. He lives! I want to write some lyrics to some songs that I enjoy listening to:
"And it makes me wonder 'How can He know the heartache I feel, when He lived a perfect life. From Gethsemane to Calvary, was it really for me that He died? And the Spirit whispers these words are true: From the Garden to the Cross, He walked a mile in my shoes."
"Sometimes I think about the way things used to be
Had it all figured out when I was two or three.
Then I made some mistakes that I regret
Let some things in my mind I wish I could forget
But I don't think I can erase these memories
That's why I'm down here on my knees.
I'm wondering if you're listening to me
Just wondering what I'm supposed to be
I'm just wondering if there's more to life than what I see
I'm wondering, just wondering
Oh lord my God when I in awesome wonder about that man on the cross
And all the pain I put him through
And everything that I still do.
Which drop of blood did I make him shed?
Did I put the thorns on to his head?
I try to do what the Savior said, but I slip all the time on the path he led
I'm wondering if you're listening to me
Just wondering what I'm supposed to be
I'm just wondering if there's more to life than what I see
I'm wondering, just wondering
And just when I think these prayers are in vain
I feel this power in my heart that relieves my pain
So please let these words get past your brain
Stop wondering, stop wondering
For I know that our fathers love is real
Open your heart and let it feel
Cuz I've never felt this love before
And I'm not wondering anymore
Oh, I'm not wondering, wondering anymore
Wondering, wondering anymore
Not wondering anymore"
I love you all! The gospel is true!
Com Amor!
-Elder Naynay
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