Sunday, October 17, 2010

Letter #24- I can´t stand to think about

A heart so big it hurts [real bad]. All I did was give my best before three whole [months] would end like that.
Well my dear family! This week has been the most eventful week of my mission. It´s been quite crazy. Let me take you back to Monday night.
 
Monday night, we had a great family night with these members in our ward. I taught them the power of prayer and the way the Lord can help us through our burdens. It was about Mosiah 24. Great chapter of the Book of Mormon. Well, we got a call from our Zone Leaders that said we need you to come home now we have an emergancy. So we left and Elder Duarte called them again and asked what was wrong. All I could hear was Elder Duarte say, "No way! No! No Way! Okay, I´ll tell him. He won´t believe me." So he hangs up the phone and says, Congratulations Elder Askins! What? Congrats? Why? He said, the President had to make an emergancy transfer. You are leaving. "Where?" Xaxim. "Where is that?" I´m not too sure. It´s been closed for a while. You are gonna be opening it. "What? How!? I´m just a junior companion." Well, you were. you are now a senior companion. congrats! "Who is my companion?" I don´t really know. You are gonna train him. "A trainer?" Well, more or less. he hasn´t gone through the MTC yet. He is a member of the stake who has been set apart as a missionary because we need missionaries.
 
Yesterday, Tuesday I prayed harder than I ever have before. I was so scared and nervous and everything. I got on my knees and cried "Father are you there? because I need you now more than ever before. You have called me to do something really hard and I can´t do it alone. I need Thee to help me."
 
A little later that day I received a phone call from President Cordon himself (Which never happens) he said "Elder Askins, I was just feeling like I needed to talk to you and explain a little better that was happening." We had a good long talk and he reassured me. We went to his house at 3 for the new elders training meeting. I had another meeting with President Cordon. He reassured me this was because God and him have faith in me and trust me. How humbling! He said that we need elders to step up to the plate and I can do this. Later, I think everyone knew how freaked out I was. 
 
Sister Cordan pulled me aside and said something that really struck me. She said "Elder Askins, you have a great oppurtunity. You are teaching a man to walk on water." I have been thinking about that statement a lot. I know that this transfer will be really hard, but I have faith in the One who issued my call that I can do all things. I feel like Nephi when he was asked by an angel, "Do you know what this means." And he said "I do not know all things, but I know God loves His children." I feel like Moses who,when he was given his call to be the prophet said "Lord , how can I do this? I am slow of speech." Because I truly am slow of speech
 
I know anything is possible with the Lord. I love you all. Until next week.
com amor,
Elder Askins

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